Holiday Blues Part 2

Sooo... yeah. The lovely holiday blues have lifted at least a little bit. I've made plans to visit Melissa over New Year's, so that takes away a bit of the depression caused by both her and Lea being absent over Christmas. I'm really really looking forward to it, I hope it works out. I think I just need a break in general, not just from school, but from home as well. Not that I have anything in particular to complain about concerning my home. It's hard to explain, but sometimes when i go home, I just wind up getting tense and nervous, it's not a pleasant feeling. Either that, or I'm on cloud nine for the duration of my stay, there's no happy medium there. I'm starting to get all tense now already. Over Thanksgiving I was ready to pack up and leave before being home more that 5 hours. However, like I said, I need a break from college life too. I won't go into the exact details there, but I'll be more than happy to get away from it for a little. So, I guess going to see Melissa for a night or two, will help with that problem quite a bit. I miss my buddy Melissa. I've only known her forever, and she's one of the few people out there who has a decent idea of exactly how my mind works. Plus, the good side of the holidays is starting to shine through for me too. We sand Christmas carols in chapel today, which has helped brighten my mood greatly. I'm also really looking forward to curling up on the couch with my baby sis to watch A Christmas Story too. That has become a little tradition for us. So I'm looking forward to going home, and total feeling the Christmas spirit; while also dreading going home and suffering from the holiday blues. Try to make that make sense. I'm experiencing two totally conflicting emotions at the same time. I'm a bit of a mess right now. While I'm here physically, my mind is off on a totally different plane of existence. *sigh* May Thursday come quickly.