On the Day of Love, I Shouldn't Feel so Much Hate

And yet I do. Why is it that I can't go through one day with out meeting someone I just want to hit? Every single day, someone is there, to remind me what jerks human beings can be. If something like this happens some place like at a mall, or a restaurant or something, I can usually shake it off. I just figure that it is just some poor soul who wasn't raised to have any manners. However, when this happens with students here on campus, it is a different story. The students here claim to be christian. They signed a document on their first day here, confessing their faith and all that good stuff. They go to chapel here, take communion, wear crucifixes, and talk about how AWESOME it is to serve their Lord God by trying to love one another as God loves us.

Liars. It is people like them who make me ashamed to call myself a Christian. I see them picking on a guy because he is a different ethnicity, laughing at a plain girl, because her clothes aren't "cool", or making snide comments about me and my sister because we have matching jackets. WTF! So they are the same, we bought them independently of each other, and they are quite cute. It's not our fault that we've both got good taste.

But it just bothers me to no end! Gosh, don't call yourself a Christian if you refuse to act like one. *sigh* I come closer and closer, everyday to refusing to call myself a Christian. The stigma that goes with it, is just something that I do not desire for myself. Call me a follower of Christ, or something like that, but those pseudo-Christians out there, have managed to crucify all respect I once had for my faith. Where is the love in this world? All I see, is hatred, and malice, and cruelty. It is a little girl who calls herself a christian who is causing my little sister so much torment in her life right now. My religion teaches love. God is love, the world was created with love, for love, love one another as you love yourself. WHERE IS THE FREAKING LOVE? Because I certainly do NOT see it here! The school and it's administration doesn't even show their students love. They do not look out for our best interests, all they try to do, is suck us dry of every cent we have. That's far from loving, that is called taking advantage of the poor. I see so little love in this world. It saddens me, and the hatred that runs rampant is slowly taking a hold of me too.

This is why I don't understand why my more religious relatives always make a fuss when I make good friends with non-christians. A non-christian can be a good person, just like a "Christian" can be a totally worthless individual. I like people with good natures, who are openminded, do not judge others, and aren't ignorant enough to think that they know everything and have all the answers in life. Unfortunately, very few people like that exist.