5 Days

I've got 5 days before I return to school for my junior year. I cannot wait, since I am taking some awesome classes this time around: The Biological Basis of Behavior, Life Span Development, Counseling Theories, Personality, and Spanish 3 (the only one I'm not looking forward to). Plus, I've got my super sweet little apartment to look forward to too. I'm so excited about actually having a kitchen. Then, there are also the obvious perks about heading back to school, like seeing all of my out-of-state buddies again.

This summer hasn't been so bad, however, it was rather uneventful. Last week I went down south to visit my cousin Michelle and her babies. Those are some seriously beautiful children. And I give Michelle so much credit for taking such great care of Jahonna and getting her all the different types of therapy that she needs. I've seen such improvement from her. Her boyfriend's 2 year old son is trip too. I was there for about 15 minutes before the kid looked at me, smiled, and said "I love you Miss Jenny!" He repeated that several more times before I left. He's such a little cutie.

So that whole trip had me feeling all happy. Then something kind of odd and unexpected happened upon my return. I ran over to the grocery store to pick a few items up for my mother, and a good friend of mine from high school was there, talking to her older sister (the older sister is a cashier there). Anyhow, she looked over at me when I walked in, and then quickly turned her head in the opposite direction. I walked by her, and she would not make eye contact with me. Finally, when I went to pay, she was sort of forced to look at me, so she said "hey" quick, and then turned away again, and would talk to me again. Needless to say, I am a little bit hurt and confused over this. I have done nothing to this girl. We've talked a few times since graduation, and she'll be the one to mention getting together sometime, but then she'll always cancel on me at the last minute. If you don't want to have contact with me anymore, just say so and give me a decent reason why. Don't go all fake on me like that.

It's sad really. It reminds me of how Melissa and I sat there during Erin's graduation party. Everyone was having a blast, and Melissa said to me "So, right now these are all the people we'd consider our good friends. How many of them do you think we'll be talking to a year from now? And how many of them do you think we'll consider our friends when we graduate from college? Personally, I think a year from now, I'll still talk to you, and maybe one or two of the others. By the time we graduate, it'll be down to just you though." I was stunned by that. It was kind of a dark and depressing thought, for such a happy and festive occasion. I mean, honestly, we're sitting there drinking pina colada flavored colas wear at least 5 lies a piece with the little umbrellas from our non-alcoholic drinks in our hair. But I sat there and thought about, and came to the same conclusion that she did. In a year, I figured I'd still had Melissa, Jessica E., Jessica J., and possibly Sarah and Kim. By graduation I still hoped to Have those first three too. Sarah I never heard from again. Kim I still talk to on IM occasionally. Jessica E. though, well, read the last paragraph. So it's down to Jessie J. and Mel. Jess and I talk less and less as the time goes on, I've noticed. So, I hate to say it, but it looks like Melissa's conclusion was correct. By graduation, of all the buddies I had in high school, she'll be the only one left. Along with Lea of course, but she's family and in a different category.