Surreal Feeling

Welcome 2009! The only reason I can really say that with any amount of enthusiasm is because I'll be graduating in May, so the year is bound to have a few highlights to it. So far the year is starting off on the right foot. Not that today has been at all exciting. I'm working on getting my bedroom here at home into decent shape before moving on Monday, so it's a bit of a dull day. But it's been quite pleasant too. Did you ever have a dream that was just so wonderful that it messed you up for the rest of the day, because you refused to fully wake up for fear of losing that wonderful feeling that came with it? I had one of those last night. Actually it started out as a nightmare, but then some odd things took place, and it turned itself into something very pleasant. Basically a big wish I had back in high school had finally come true, and I had everything I had thought that I wanted back then. Sadly, that's not what I want out of life anymore but I was so happy and content in the dream. I've kept myself in the drowsy semi-awake state all day today for fear that I'll forget that feeling again. I also stayed in bed for an hour after waking, hoping to drift off again and return to it. So all day, after waking my mind has been on my Junior and Senior years of High school, and different aspects of my life back in those days. To add to that odd, surreal, not fully here feeling I've got, I just had a very friendly and kind conversation with one of my ghosts from my past (infact, he came into my life around the same time that most of the things in my dream did). This is someone who I admit to hurting, intentionally, on several occasions with the assistance of Melissa. A few of you will know exactly what I'm talking about here. The rest of you, well, be happier not knowing about some of the crazy stuff I did out of boredom in high school. It's nice to know that I've been forgiven though, and that on some level, this person still has a good opinion of me, and thinks I'm great. It's all so bizarre.