I'm Losing My Mind... Part 2

Anyhow, I never got into why exactly I'm losing my mind in my last post. You see, it's just not turning out the way I want it to. It doesn't look at all like it did in my head or on my sketches. It's driving my crazy, and I think I'm starting to get a bit of a headache. I think the real problem I have though, is not the fact that it doesn't look quite right, I think it lies in my attitude towards the project as well as creation.

As stated in my last post, I've learned to question these beliefs I've blindly accepted all my life. This includes my beliefs about creation. I was raised to believe in the literal 6-day creation. I'm not a believer in that any more. There are two creation accounts in Genesis, which do not match up. So clearly, you can't believe that the entire Bible is to be taken literally from start to finish. Some of it must be figurative, which parts are which, no one can tell. I do believe that we were created, how we were created though, I can't even begin to guess. Maybe evolution was used, maybe it wasn't. I do not understand why people make such a big fuss about it. There are several areas in our religion where questions can be raised and the only real answer you can give is a basic "I just don't know". You can feel one way or another, but to get all irate when questioned just doesn't make sense. The giant Creation vs. Evolution war going on between the church and the school boards, is something that I am very much against. I like the way our country was founded on the principle of separation of church and state. Religious freedom is something I support. Unfortunately though, Christianity has resorted to telling children that the church's way, is the only way, and that if they try to think for themselves, and question these things, they'll be on the fast track to Hell.

So obviously I've got a huge issue with being forced to do this project. We read articles in class about how different people have interpreted the creation accounts, all of which take a more literal look at them, and condemn anyone who views it differently. Worst of all, this class isn't even an elective, it's a requirement. We have to journal our reactions to the readings, and hand them in to be graded. So far, since these professors have different views, they believe that since I disagree with the authors, I must not fully understand the what the author was trying to say. Therefore, points are taken off of my grade. So I'm trying to find a way to compromise with this damned project. I want a good grade, yet I also don't want to sell out, and do this project in a fashion that will please the prof, yet deny my own beliefs. I'm trying to find a way to strike up a good balance.