I'm Losing My Mind...

slowly but surely, sometimes I can't help but wonder. My creativity seems to have left me. Needless to say, this doesn't exactly thrill me. I'm attempting to make a bracelet for my Creation Project, for my Created and Called class. My God I hate that class. I've gone through my beading boxes and removed everything I think I might be able to use to represent creation. So far I've got:

6 Tiny Seashells with holes drilled in them
3 Small round mother of pearl disks
2 Sky blue round crystals
8 Sapphire bicone crystals
10 Peridot bicone crystals
7 Pressed glass flowers in lilac, white, and blue
10 Pressed glass leaves in lilac, white, and blue
6 carved amethyst hearts
11 Fluorite chips(mostly green and white)
12 Topaz colored faceted disks
15 round lavender jade beads
Some of my headpins are store bought, some gold and some silver
Some of my headpins are home made using wire and seed beads
I'm even thinking of making the chain on my own
I might even make the clasp too

Different aspects of these objects represent different things:

First of all, I'm trying to make everything on my own. It will obviously be my own little act of creation, done as much as possible with my own two hands. The home made aspects represent God's direct work, like the natural world. The parts that I have bought, namely the sterling silver and gold headpins, represent human kind, and their work. We have mined out those metals and have refined them, and made them into the form of a headpin; however, they still indirectly come from God, we honestly can't take any credit.

Next, what the object itself is, represents different things. The seashells and mother of pearl disks represent life. As we all know, little creatures called mollusks once made their homes inside of there. The fluorite chips represent the earth and the variety of color it can has also represents the great variety of just about anything you can find in nature, whether you are looking at gems, plants, or even animals. Also the naturalistic form they are in, simple chips, shows how beautiful God's creation can be without humankind's interference. The jade and the amethyst represent most of the same things the fluorite does, however, they've been carved into shapes by humans, so they also represent humankind and their effect of the earth. The leaves and the flowers also shows human kind and their effect, as well as representing the love we should have for our natural world, by the shapes they possess. The crystals also represent humans in the fact that they are faceted to enhance the natural beauty they already possess.

Finally, the colors of these objects represent different things as well. There are a lot of blues, greens, and neutrals. The neutrals clearly clearly represent the earth. It's sturdy and strong. The blues represent the sky and the water. It flows, it changes, change is good. The green, well green represents life in general. It's spring, the rebirth of life, and growth. These three aspects of life, are things I consider very important. If you have God, you have something sturdy, in life, that you can rely on no matter what. God is like, the solid ground beneath your feet, there to catch you if you fall. Change is something that we just don't embrace in this world. It's all right to question, challenge, and change your beliefs. It's only through this change that you can grow in your faith. If you blindly swallow what your pastor force feeds you, in all honesty, it is meaningless. You need to think about these things, question them, maybe even reinterpret them. Being willing to admit that you might have been wrong about your former beliefs shows incredible growth and maturity in your faith.